Who will save your soul?

Sitting here listening to my wide variety of music I find a short lasting portal to my inner self. I find an escape from the real world by diving into the meaning of my vast songwriters minds. What is your escape from reality? I really want to know how genuine and unique I truly am, if I am at all. RANDOM SIDE-NOTE, I won't be capitalizing anymore of my i's from now on. i like the informal style that comes from not having perfect grammar or punctuation and at the fear of being perceived as an idiot i thought i would inform you. I believe that every person wants to think that they are one of a kind, but the more i think about it the chances of me being the first person in the history of mankind to act and speak like i do is slim to none. People's mannerism's come from generations of adaptation, right? So i am be the first to express myself as successfully as i do but what i'm expressing isn't new just newly expressed...that sounded more complicated then it should. My example of this is going to come from high school. My high school band director had a habit of finding controversial opinions and facts and spouting them at his classes and making it seem as though he was the origin of this knowledge when in fact the internet led him to this, so when the students started stumbling across this information on their own he was out of creative forces, but he led us to this information so he actually made us capable of our own understanding. 

Explanations...

I don't think that my thoughts are any more important then yours but the difference is I am trying to express them, so bite me. At what age can one truly understand the complex concept of agreeing to a life with someone till death do they part? Maybe it's just because I'm bitter towards relationships but to be in your early twenties and married seems ridiculous, am I alone?

and so it begins...

I never thought I was a person who would ever blog, but here I am 19 years old and preparing to blog my heart out to a vast electrical nothingness. Maybe my thoughts will get lucky and run across some other lost soul searching for...whatever a person might search for. I myself am searching for a purpose. I understand and realize that searching for a purpose may be better suited for a different time and place besides online at one in the morning. To get to more pressing matters, the purpose of this blog is going to be pretty much me analyzing my life and what goes on in it and hoping I'll come across some guidance from those who have gone through or understand what I am experiencing. :) I am unusually optimistic about this.